Thursday, October 20, 2011

This love.

I just won’t address my absence to the blog.  I’m tired, people, and my computer does not work.  Hence, no photos unless they are from my phone.

I will, however, tell you about something that happened two weeks ago.  It really made me realize even more that I need to be so grateful for this wonderful pregnancy I have had.  Yes, I am really uncomfortable and so very ready for this little man to come, but I want him to grow and stay nice and healthy in my belly.  That is where he is the safest.

This little guy moves all.the.time.  I mean he is a MOVER.  I love it.  One night I noticed he had not moved all day long.  This wasn’t right for him, but I just said he was sleeping, he was fine.  The next morning he still hadn’t moved.  I was kind of concerned, but Brad and I decided I should just get a coffee on the way to work and see if that woke him up a little.  His prime time movement is mid-morning.  Mid-morning came and went and I think I felt him maybe once.  [My doctor says to do “kick counts” which is five kicks per an hour (during an active hour).  I’ve never done them because he moves so much.  I was doing them that morning…and he was no where near five]. I told the hubs and he insisted I call the doctor. 

You know when you call the OB, they take a message and your nurse calls you back about 5 hours later.  Oh no.  Not this day.  The operator said hold on and my nurse got on the phone immediately.  She asked me where I was and told me to get to the office as soon as I possibly could.  I literally hung up the phone and walked out of work, calling my husband on the way.  I think I stopped breathing at that moment and didn’t start again until after the sonogram tech said he was okay.  I did not realize just how scared I was until she smiled at me and said he is fine…he must have just been resting. I lost it.  Right then and there.  First real mom moment I think.  I have never been so scared in my life.  This boy is everything to me and if something happened to him, I just don’t know what I would do with myself.

It really is true that you just cannot fathom the love you will have for your child.  If my heart is already swelling now and I have not even met him, I cannot imagine what this love will be like.  And honestly, I couldn’t be more frightened or excited at the same time.

boot

Are you kidding me?  When I went to get his coming home from the hospital gown monogrammed, I saw these that match the gown…um, yes please, I’ll take them.   So teeny tiny and precious.



7 comments:

Jill said...

KAITLIN!!! That is so scary! I'm so glad he's ok... whew! I hope I get to see "y'all" in a few days!!!

Allie @ Table for 3, Actually Make that 4 said...

HOLY MOSES that is scary! I am so glad that he is okay! It is always freaky when you do not feel them move towards the end! Just think he will be here ON THE OUTSIDE SOON!!! I am so excited for you guys!! Lots of prayers for him to be moving and grooving 247 these last few weeks! xo

Mrs. Mama said...

Oh man.. let me tell you... this was me from 33 weeks on until birth. I was doing fine until that 32/33 mark... and all of a sudden i worried, EVERY MOVE. i cried ALL the time. i pushed on my belly INSANE AMOUNTS begging for elliana to move *even though she was probably sleeping* and had my doppler out too many times to count. i begged for the doc to get the baby out!

its amazing how much you love this child and they arent even here...

oh i cant wait for your little one! hang in there mama! the time will come SOOON :)

Heather said...

Oh my gosh, that's so scary!! I'm so glad he is alright. The hat & booties are precious!

Amanda said...

I'm so glad he's OK. That must've been terrifying! That little hat and, are those socks?, are adorable!!!

Megan said...

I can't even imagine how scary!! I'm so so glad that he was fine and just resting up for his debut into the world!!

Liv Kit @ Simply Sunshine and Daisys said...

That is very scary. Glad all is ok, and yes you really lucky. I can not have babies due to cancer, and so I am really happy to read such a honest post.

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